ok such a loooonggg time since i blogged.
firstly. let's talk about me. im a bit tired now. but i think i'll manage. just that perhaps this post will be long and draggy and dry and boring. but well.
1) the liver transplant which i was INITIALLY scheduled to undergo is cancelled. and i dunno that is lucky or unlucky for me. i've weighed out the pros and cons. so let's see.
the pros:
- i wont have the mercs scar on my tummy.
- i can continue to eat
- and i'll be healthy!
the cons:
- i cannot eat normal food
- actually i have this bad feeling about this major operation. it's 2 lives on the table for the doctors to cut you know! and i have to power over it
- well i'll be unhealthy
you know after the transplant, i'll be like bedridden and handicapped and helpless and i dunno. i think it'll be simply BAD. i cannot eat chicken rice! that's like the ultimater challenge. i cannot eat all hawker fare. and most importantly, i'm the EAT kinda of person so i think life wont be happy for me without food! besides, i wont be able to climb stairs carry stuff. so i think im "lucky" in this aspect that i didnt go for the transplant.
ok why didnt go for the transplant? and this goes a long way back. i remember on my OP day, i was complaining for numbness on my right side of my face. and i think i told germaine and mano and marcus. but i thought it was just nervous stuff and i ignored it. then i suffered severe headache soon after and after some mri blaah blah blah the operation is cancelled! ok they simply found another tumour near my brain stem cell. so thats why cannot operation! oh after transplant i have to eat LIFE LONG immuno suppressant drugs. how expensive and i may die of a flu.
oh yes. i must talk about my beloved friends. they are so so so so so super nice(sorry i got no sophiscated vocabulary) they came and bought this darling huge eeyore and stuffs! which i was so touched. and yes how i love them <33
okay. then to deal with the according-to-the-doctor-it's-a-small-tumour-but-doesnt-look-like-one-to-me brain cell tumour i had up in my head, i went through five days of radiotherapy! it was suppose to be a five week stuff but thank god it's only 5 days i really hope i'll be okay. ok skip the process. just lie there 15 mins and im out. for the first 2 days was totally terrible. cause the steroids i was consuming was too little which resulted in swollen brain something which cause nausea. for the second day, i vomited for a grand total of 11 times. it's is completely nothing already. just water out of my mouth. and being a FOOD person, how could i bear it! so hence, therefore, was admitted to the hospital. and yay im okay now. haha wednesday will go see doctor and i think soon another mri scan will be up and we shall see and i shall hope for the best yes? oh the liver tumours are still there i doubt they'll go away. but we'll see. my life huh! i hope second line chemo will be as good.
ok so im currently consuming steroids. err 24mg per day. my face will be like fishball! but nevermind lar huh. after like so long my hair is finally sprouting out!! and im happy. although i understand it's only temporary. but it's okay!!!
err yah. thats all about me.
2) we went to EAST COAST PARK today!! with huizhen, yini, chelsea, qinying and yirong! (it's disappointing our beloved huiqi is going to australia today) and we brought food. too much in fact and cycle. and frisbee. and eat. and photographs. happy happy happy. oh yes!
to my dear friends:
I REALISED I DID NOT BRING OUT MY FIFTY DOLLARS AT ALL! HAHA IT WAS ALL ALONG IN MY MAIN WALLET! HAHAHAHAAHA SO I DIDNT DROP IT!! HOHOHOHOHO
